Meet Ms. R
I first met Ms. R through Instagram. She was interested in a boudoir photo shoot for personal reasons and wondered if I was available for a session in San Antonio.
She explained what those reasons were, and given at the time I was working with Alicia, who was dealing with the same type of challenges, I decided to make the drive out from Austin and help her.
Under the Spotlight of the Lens
We met at a park in New Braunfels. She said she had always envisioned herself being photographed rising from a body of water and looking sensual and sexy, and that the lake at the park would be perfect for those types of photographs. After looking at the water and seeing how dirty it was, I told her she would have more issues to deal with if we were to go through with those plans.
She laughed, and eventually, we made our way to another park along the banks of the Guadalupe River. There I told her about my approach, where we would talk and build a rapport. When we began the photo shoot, she became nervous and struggled to relax. I asked her to smile. She said she hated her smile.
To help her connect with me, as someone who would understand what she was going through, I shared with her how I survived heartbreak and loss. Also, over the years, I had developed body dysmorphia and an unhealthy relationship with food, which I then projected onto others.
She began to relax.
I shared how I began to help myself and that keeping busy with interests and work, such as my photography, helped me feel better about myself. Perhaps this boudoir photo shoot would help her see herself as more than the sum total of her challenges.
She relaxed more, and her body began to bend towards me.
She began talking more about what her challenges were and how it would leave her feeling like nothing. She hoped her boudoir pictures would help, in moments when she would need a reminder that regardless of how she would feel, so as long as she had herself, she would be fine.
I told her she will be fine and a shine began coming through her eyes.
She shared more of what was going on in her life, in detail; as she talked, I took her picture.
She shared, detail, her desires, her passions; as she talked, I took her picture.
The nervous young woman I had met through Instagram was, for the moment, gone; standing before me was a young woman who didn’t question her smile or her body or anything else.
She exuded confidence and her being able to touch upon that made her that much more beautiful.
We moved along to another location for a final set of photographs and continued with our boudoir photography.
After the session, she was happy and couldn’t wait to see how I had seen her throughout the photo shoot. We parted ways, and I began the drive back to Austin. Words cannot describe the immense satisfaction I felt on that drive. I came away with the most authentic photographs I had ever shot. I am so grateful she trusted me.
A person can’t be told to get better. A person can’t be told they are beautiful just the way they are. They need to see it through the eyes of someone who can express it directly, without a word.
Her pictures from the boudoir photo shoot say it all.
The pictures say…
I am beautiful because I am a fighter!